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Episode #238 Too Much of NothingToo Much of Nothing: Notes on Feminism, Identity, and Womanhood, by Carla Stockton
Air Date: August 20, 2025 @ 9:00am EST
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Lightning Forever. . . .
In 2016, my friend B treated me to a Southwest adventure. We flew to Phoenix, visited family before we drove to Sedona and on to New Mexico. After seeing friends and family in Albuquerque, we parked ourselves in Santa Fe, where we planned to stay before taking the High Road to Taos winding up with family in Los Alamos. The trip was gorgeous in many ways, but a definite highlight was meeting Rock’n’Rolll legend Lou Christie.
Lou had been on our flight from NY to Albuquerque, and we had noticed him. How could we not? What an icon of pop culture he had been for most of both our lives. Lou Christie wrote and sang the musical score for almost every event of my adolescence. We were impressed, but we didn’t bother him. Until we saw him in Santa Fe.
He walked into the lobby of La Fonda Hotel as we roamed through looking for a public restroom. I could not resist. Neither could B. I don’t remember exactly what we said to him or why he engaged with us, but when we left the hotel, I had his personal phone number and an invitation to call him about an interview for my “get Read” column in the Columbia School of the Arts publication Catch and Release.
Now that Lou is gone, I thought I would re-share that interview. . . .

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If I were a photographer, and the shutter had just closed, I would be confident that I had just grabbed the money shot.
“Lou,” I ask toward the end of our three-hour interview, “what have been the major forks in your life? The professional ones, the places where you could have gone one way, but you chose to go another. . . ?”
“Oh, wow,” he muses. I love that question!”
We’ve been talking long enough for me to truly understand why he likes it so much, why he is so visibly moved. Lou Christie has been doing what he’s doing most of his life, and what he’s been doing is reinventing himself, reconfiguring the formulae that take him and his melodious voice onward and upward.
We were seated among colorful iconography on orange furniture in the cozy, New Mexico-inspired sitting room he has built atop what used to be the roof of a 1940s tenement building in Hell’s Kitchen, in midtown Manhattan, where he has lived since the early 1970s. He bought his apartment when it went coop, and the landlord was selling dirt cheap; knowing exactly what he wanted and being ever in control of his destiny, he simultaneously bought the air rights so that he could add his a second story of his own design, connected to the first by a picturesque spiral staircase, lit by a skylight and a sliding glass door that leads to the patio with a view of lower Manhattan and the Hudson River.
Despite the low price, the decision to purchase the place took some deliberation. Hell’s Kitchen was among the least desirable neighborhoods at the time, a rough area dominated by the Westies, a deadly alliance between the Italian and Irish mobs, and by Puerto Rican and Anglo youth gangs. The ones immortalized in West Side Story. But Lou Christie recognized an opportunity to get in on the first wave of gentrification, and by the 1980s, the Javitz Center was underway, the Westies were disempowered, and the kids were back in school. He had bought himself a haven. Now, he has transformed a perfect example of simple, utilitarian working-class architecture into a Southwestern style country dasha, a brilliant transformation.
And the perfect metaphor for the life and times of Lou Christie.
When Lou moved into Hell’s Kitchen, his star had begun to rise in earnest. Thanks to New York radio stations and American Bandstand, Christie’s had become the voice of its generation. The insistent falsetto, half pleading, half scolding, all simply celebrating the fact that it could get that high, played on all the hit radio stations. WABC’s hitmaker Bruce “Cousin Brucie” Morrow, was a fan, as was WNBC’s gravel-throated Robert Weston “Wolfman Jack” Smith. “If those guys liked you, you were in.”
“I was a fifteen-year-old farm boy from Glenwillard – yes, it’s a real place, less than twenty miles out into the boondocks in the environs of Pittsburgh, PA” – when I realized I wanted to sing, just sing. I wasn’t Lou Christi in those days.”
Lou was born Lugee Giovanni Sacco, a name reconfigured from the longer Sicilian Saccosso at Ellis Island, and he always loved to sing. And to color outside the lines.
“My father, who had been schooled to become a priest or a doctor, was my first role model: he chose a path less traveled and became a steel mill worker. Then he came home every evening to farm our 100-acre property. Both my parents were musicians, and instead of spending evenings watching television together, we usually got together over music-making.
Lou was the second of six children, having trailed his sister Amy into the world by 18 months; when Lou was nearly fourteen, his parents solved a marital crisis by having four more kids: Maree, Marcie, Shauna and Peter. “We all had to chip in then,” he says, smiling slyly.
“We never knew any different; we just took care of one another, helped mom take care of the house and dad take care of the farm. But we were always singing. I don’t remember ever NOT singing.” From the beginning, Lou was the family lead singer, and his sisters and brother naturally provided the backup.
“See? Now, there’s the first fork. I knew I wanted to be a singer. But I had to make some choices. Am I better off going into Classical? My teacher thought I should do that. Or should I find great standards to sing? But wait, should I write my own stuff? I had a great range – I sang the lowest bass in my school choir and the highest tenor with equal ease.”
He also had a counter tenor range, the ability to sing the really high notes.
“SI kept asking myself, what voice should I choose?”
His falsetto won and forged a path to classic rock ‘n’ roll.
“I didn’t want to be a choir boy. My father was a great bread winner, all day long he was a slave in the steel mill, and then he came home and farmed his land. I was a happy kid, but I didn’t want to be like him. Not me. I wanted the levis, the painted jeans, the purple shirts all the way. I just knew this was it, and I knew instinctively how important it was to remain master of my own career.
“I was so focused. You know. I gave up a lot, like my teen years, but I got exactly what I wanted because I went after it. You know that book The Secret? They must have been following my life . . . because that’s what I did. I concentrated my efforts on getting what I wanted, and I made it happen every time.”
Lou got wind that there signed up for lessons with “a guy in Pittsburgh, who recorded local artists.” After a single session, the producer sent Lou home to make a demo tape. “He told me my voice was already good enough.”
“What you really need,” the teacher said, “Is a backup group.”
Lou grins at the memory.
“’Oh,’ I said to him. ‘I got my group.’ We’ve got a sound you’ve probably never heard. Kinda like three mice. Because I sing high, and I have another guy, and he sings up here too, and a girl. . . so then he said, ‘ Okay. Go put something together, make me a demo tape, and let me hear what you got.’ ”
When Lou brought the demo back to the studio, the producer was impressed enough to put Lou’s group on the vocal backgrounds for a song called Ronnie Come Back, by a girl called Marcy Jo, on the Robbie Records label. Everyone loved the sound of the background, and the record was a big hit, climbing the national charts and reaching the top 20. Lou and his mice never got paid.
“Then we did a follow up with Marcy called When Gary Went in the Navy, and four more, and they were all hits though they never paid us. Heck, I was still in school. I couldn’t even drive yet.”
After a few more non-paying hits with Marcy Jo, Lou chose a new path and set his standards by creating Lugee and the Lions. “I was Lugee, and my sisters and the same group of little kids that were always around me sang as the Lions.” Lou’s dad drove the group all over Pittsburgh, where they sang for weddings, mall openings, parades and the like, and eventually the positive attention brought him Twyla Herbert. And thus he reached yet another fork in his road.
“I could see right away. . . that woman was pure genius. When she proposed working together, I still had to question myself. . . .
“There I was at another fork. This woman was special. She was twenty years older than me, had a degree in classical music, was a classical pianist, didn’t know a doo-wop from a dust mop. But she was brilliant. Just brilliant. And I could see we could be good together, really good!”
He chose to give collaboration a go, and together, Christie and Herbert wrote The Gypsy Cried, in the style of Valli’s Sherry – it took them all of fifteen minutes – and, he said the experience was surreal, something like what he imagined it would be like to be on an acid trip though he had no experience with drugs. “There was something about our chord patterns. They were more classical or more international, made the music more interesting instead of the standard 4 chord progressions, the usual wha wha wha. . . “ The song established a musical partnership spanned the next 47 years, until Twyla Herbert’s death in 2009.
“I never wanted to make a record that sounded like anyone else. My voice had this falsetto, these octaves to work with, and I didn’t want to record anything that wasn’t uniquely mine.”
By 1966, when Lou and Twyla wrote Lightning Strikes, which shot almost immediately to #1 on the European and American billboard charts, Lou knew beyond doubting he had made the right choice both in going into the business of creating songs with Twyla Herbert and in sticking to his falsetto. The only choice he didn’t like for a long time, until he got accustomed to it, was the recording company’s choice of his name.
“I just wanted to be Lugee!”
But the bosses dubbed him Lou Christie. And Lou Christie soared to fame and fortune.
He never took his good luck for granted.
Still, the path was never smooth.
“Even good managers can be really dumb. I know because I had one. . . . Bob Marcucci tried to sway me from my path, and I had to fight tooth and nail to stay the course.”
Marcucci told Lou that he would have to grow up, lose the falsetto, sing more standard arrangements of old songs. But Lou tried it Marcucci’s way just once.
“I went to my gig in Framingham, outside Boston, and I sang all the standards, all the classics. ” It was a disaster. Fans hissed and booed, screaming for “Lightening Strikes.”
“It made sense to me. I mean, can you see me doin’ Ol’ Man River? I’m boring myself just thinking about it.”
Lou left the songs in a dumpster and vowed to listen only to his own advice. He toured extensively, singing the hits, getting his audience to its feet in adulation, singing along. He knew what worked. His easy style on stage coupled with his obvious natural delight in being there sold him.
Lou stops and thinks for a moment. When he speaks, he is back in the present.
“Now I’m sayin’ to myself, I’m 72, and I’m sayin’ ‘See? It still works. I’m still here.’”
That was 2016. Lou’s concerts were never less than packed. His life was never perfect. He had married, divorced, raised two children, lost one to a tragic accident, and he had persisted in touring and sharing the joy of his presence with family, friends, and, most of all with fans.
Like his myriad fans, I am left with the memory of a warm, witty man with a singular mission.
“Once upon a time,” Lous said to me just before we ended our interview, “I only wanted to share the good side, the fun side because I don’t believe you can make a career out of talking about all the bad things in life. But maybe it’s time to start mentioning it. Everyone thinks I’ve had a flawless life. Part of the reason is I project that kind of forward thinking, and I’m a peaceful person. I have never wanted to get stuck in my anger or my bitterness.
“But you know, I am still so naïve There are a lot of people out there who live on bitter – more of an addiction than any wine or beer or shot or pill. I don’t want to be one of them.
“Maybe I will write that book.”

A Very Human Condition
When I moved to New York City in 2003, it took me some time before I eventually found work as a New York City Sightseeing Guide. For the first year, I felt ridiculously fortunate to be able to share NYC with tourists who rode with me on the top of a double-decker bus and to get paid for the pleasure. That wore off eventually, but in the meantime, I got to know Mandy.
Mandy, still generally called by what would become her dead name, Stephen, was my favorite coworker. A brilliant guide and former attorney, she was saving up for gender reassignment surgery.
Divorce from a greedy wife, mental illness in a daughter whom Mandy would never abandon, and frequent mandate transgressions had led to her being fired from her high-powered law firm, which left Mandy with no money for the ultra-expensive procedures. In the interim, Mandy made concessions of powerful self-assertion by wearing, in all weather, Bermuda shorts fashioned in bright orange sweatshirt fabric, frowzy blouses and tops that plunged below her prominent and rapidly graying chest hair, and neon-colored sneakers. Her hair and mouth were a whirling forest of bright tangerine curls and a soft, pillowy hot pink glossy triangle.
“I’m a lesbian,” Mandy explained to me the first time she asked me out to dinner.
I was flattered. I had never met anyone smarter or funnier than this person, qualities I have always found irresistible in a man. But I had no interest in being romantically involved with a woman, even a woman who was, anatomically at least, still a man. Of course, I didn’t want to hurt Mandy’s feelings, and though I turned down the invitations to dinner, to movies, to theater, we often sat together as we waited between buses.

I never tired of listening to the stories she told. The personal stories were harrowing, beginning with a Lower East Side childhood, and the professional stories were infuriating. This person had tolerated more than anyone’s fair share of abuse by the system over the years. If I had been differently wired, if I were capable of loving Mandy as she deserved to be loved, I would have spent all kinds of days and nights with this remarkable human being.
Those first months working on the bus were magical. What a privilege it seemed to explore New York from an ostensible eagle’s view. As a history and culture buff, I was learning in a way no book or school had ever taught me. Mandy’s wide knowledge of the city enriched each day and broadened my tour repertoire. Having studied architecture, Mandy was conversant with the eclectic nuances of building styles that comprised our city’s makeup. As an astute political observer, she understood the underpinnings of Tammany, why Robert Moses was more tyrant than savior. She explained to me why the Breslin-Mailer campaign to create the great city-state, a movement I enthusiastically worked for in my youth, was basically moronic. Having studied labor law, her expertise guided our labor disputes. When the company abused us, Mandy spoke eloquently with great erudition. She knew the score. She understood what we were entitled to and what was being kept from us with malicious, greedy fury.
Winter descended as I rounded the end of my first year on the bus, and with it came the end of the idyll. Cold weather and heartless employers extinguished the joy.
Eventually, Mandy ended too.
Our company, a startup in every sense of the word, provided no bathroom for our relief. For a while, we were allowed to use the restrooms in the Hilton Garden Inn, which was less than a block from our launch site, and the management there even encouraged us to buy goods in their gift store and food mart by giving us a generous discount.
Then one day Mandy farted and sighed loudly in a stall in the women’s room, and a tourist seated next to her, the woman in the next stall, securely separated by a metal wall and a locked door, freaked out at the sound of a male voice sighing on the tail of a roaring fart. She complained to the Hilton management. After that, all guides were banned from the place. No more comfy lounge seats, no more cheap candy bars. No more toilet. I saw no solution to the problem and opted to take a break.
I left the buses to edit a book for the friend of a friend. The book was set in NYC, but the London-based author knew little about our city and wrote locations that were amiss and an Iowa-bred protagonist, who was more accurately an Englishman in New York. To complete the project, I went to the UK for a few months, and when I returned, Mandy was gone.
Conditions Mandy had fought to improve had killed her.
Mandy was our advocate, the voice that argued for improvement in conditions atop the buses that were unfit for guides. We had no place to sit. We were required at times to perform chores – like helping the elderly up the stairs or carrying baby paraphernalia or lugging luggage up the stairs – that put undue strain on all our muscle groups. We stood for long periods of time, jostled mercilessly about. We had no place to go to get warm, no relief from the harsh winter exacerbated by the harsh wind generated by the moving bus.
Mandy’s back and health could not take it. She suffered pneumonia and bronchitis and then was injured and re-injured until she finally had no choice but to undergo back surgery. Like many spinal surgery patients, Mandy did not survive. The company management, who never appreciated what an asset they had in Mandy, was relieved. Tethered by Mandy’s knowledge of the law, they had felt forced to retain her. Her illnesses and back troubles cost them money by way of pay they were impelled to dole out and by insurance rate hikes her claims inflicted. The bloodsuckers were free at last.
We who loved Mandy, lost a precious friend. I lost a valuable mentor.
I find myself wishing for her presence lately. She’d tell me why the current state of affairs for Trans people cannot hold. She’d tell me to keep the faith.
“Don’t give the bastards any power,’ she’d laugh. “They’ll turn to dust just like the rest of us.”
No Turkey for me, Thanks
Thanksgiving could have been a sad day for me. I dreaded it.
Alone with my grandson in a place where no holiday exists, I expected I’d miss it all. But I didn’t.
The day was as unThanksgiving-ly as I expected. People were at work, kids at school, and the rain was relentless. No decorations adorning the stores, no premature Christmas music wafting on the air. And, to my surprise, no soggy sobbing from morning till night. I was fine.
Once upon a time, when I was part of the huge, giggling gaggle of disparate personalities we called family, the cozy congeniality of the holiday was indeed beautiful. And bountiful. As the day approached, the smell of baking pies, the sight of the giant turkey defrosting in the fridge filled me with genuine, near-tears rejoicing. The thought of that convocation and the laughter that would resound from the dining area were what motivated my excitement for Thanksgiving, and I made sure I could participate in the whole ritual year after year, with family or with friends, depending on where I was.
Times, however, change. The characters in my memory story have morphed into strangers or moved off the planet, and in their absence, rather than nostalgia, I am left with a more realistic picture of the holiday scene.
Instead of laughter and conviviality, my stomach churns at the thought of the after-dinner bloat battle. Turkey never agreed with me, and because we ate little sugar every other day of the year, along with the indigestible bird, the pecan and pumpkin pies caused turmoil in my digestive tract, from which it took days to recover.
The minute the last crumb of desert was wolfed down, the company split into small cliques. Some went to watch football on TV while others went out to play or ride horses or visit friends. We were no longer connected once the food was cleared.
And then the cleanup. The inevitable sorting of leftovers, boiling the carcass to make a soup, washing greasy pans that revived the after-dinner queasiness.
No, I did not miss any of it.
This year, my grandson and I went for a long walk, made chocolate chip cookies, talked about people who were not there to share the day with us. We laughed. He got silly, as small boys do, and we ate fried rice. It was a great day. A day that filled me with boundless gratitude.
Much better for me than a day of gorging into gassy oblivion. I spent the day with a precocious child, whose doe eyes shine with my mother’s dark brown wonder and remind me how lucky I am that she escaped the Holocaust and found her way to my father. We looked at pictures of cousins who visited us last summer – cousins with my father’s April blue eyes that teared with joy when his children gathered round him. I told him about the Thanksgiving my brother, whom he will never get to know, took his mother up a mountain and taught her to drive . . . at the tender age of 9. Then I reminisced about a holiday I spent with my long-gone sister and her now-departed sons and how her daughters remind me how very strong and powerful she actually was. We watched a video of a time we spent with my son’s children, each of whom bears the name of one of my parents, one whose eyes are dark and inquisitive like mom’s and the other whose eyes are oceanic, sensitive like dad’s. The laughter resounded in my memory. The joy of holiday moments, the ones where we joined hands and thanked God for blessing us all by keeping us alive, for sustaining us, and for bringing us to this season.
It was a perfect Thanksgiving Day.





